I had so many plans for when I turned 18. I wanted to go away from PA and live out on my own and live my own life and be my own person without having to worry about people telling what to do, when to do it, and how to do it. I would not have to worry about parents or guardians and I would never have to worry about my family. I planed to turn 18 and get my first job...I planned to finish school and go to collage for literature... I planned to be with a man who has helped me in so many ways in my life that my life changed because of him last summer.

Instead, I messed up somewhere in the middle. Before I turned 18 I made a mistake and was with a guy, Jesse, who hit me and did so many things to me that I could not handle. I did not know it at the time, but about about a half month before my birthday, I became pregnant to this man. Before i knew I was pregnant I broke-up with him and kept him far away from me. I did the only thing I knew how to do. As soon as I turned 18, I ran away so he could not find me. I ran to a town i used to live in last year, Titusville, and there I found am old friend, Donald. By this time I was suspaecting of being pregnant but was not sure. I got together with Donald because I knew that he would never purposly hurt me and I knew that somewhere he did love me. After a week together, Donald convinced me to go to the hospital to see what was up with my stomach. I was at the hospital for about 45 minutes when one of the nurses came in and told Donald and I that I was pregnant... Donald was happy and quickly claimed the baby as his. I was scared and confused and kinda freaked the fuck out! But somewhere I already had a mother's love for my baby and knew I would do everything in my power to keep my baby away from it's real father...

But something bad happened... Somehow, Jesse found out about the baby and got ahold of me... We talked over the internet and Donald and him talked and Jesse said he wants to be part of the baby's life... Donald and him made an agreement... If Jesse puts any stress on me at all, then Donald and I are going to go somewhere where Jesse will not know and I am never to get ahold of hima nd he is never to try to get ahold of me... Surprisingly, Jesse agreed to this...

It has been about a week since that conversation and I have not heard from him since... truthfully I hope I never hear from him again...